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Alright, so here's the Luke blog thing I promised yesterday. Only now I don't quite know what to say. Yesterday I seriously had an entire essay of things to write about but now I'm just sad. Could have something to do with the dreams I had.
Luke is probably my favorite daytime character, and like every single daytime character out there he is Really Fucked Up. But he always displays his fucked up-ness in such a way that it just...it doesn't aggravate me or anger me, it usually just makes me unimaginably sad and want to hug him and this time is no different. He's insecure, he's impetuous, he has an addictive personality, and he can be Very Very Bratty. He's also loving, brave, funny, sweet, and he seriously cares about people--to the point that he would, and has, sacrificed his own happiness for them. He's a good guy who's humanly flawed and who's made some big mistakes--that's all.
It just doesn't seem fair that the whole fandom has come down on him like a ton of bricks because he's made some stupid choices. That's the nature of soap-watchers though, I guess. Always angry at the newest screw-up. Thank god I've been looking at it more like I looked at QAF than I would a soap. It's like...when Justin left Brian at the end of S2 I wasn't actually angry with Justin--though I was angry at the situation--I was mostly just sad that things had come to such a place. That's how I am right now. I don't blame Noah, but I'm not blaming Luke either. Luke's been dealing with some horrible shit lately. Granted, some of it, like the election business, he brought on himself, but not all of it is his fault and Luke...Luke has always self-destructed when bad things happen. I think he puts so much effort into trying to keep things together that when they fall apart anyway he takes it as a personal failure.
It absolutely doesn't help that when he began voicing doubt about Bryan no one would listen to him. No one. He's been dealing with that douche-bag's shit by himself for way too long. Do you think that if Noah was in a similar situation Luke would have blown him off the way Noah did Luke? Fuck no. At least, I don't think so. Noah, Lily, Holden, and Lucinda have consistently marginalized Luke's concerns from the moment he began to have them and that has to have fucked with Luke's head. Remember when the whole Cleo/Will/Gwen/Jade thing happened? Luke was the only one willing to listen to her, to believe in her. No one is willing to listen to Luke and that just chokes me up fiercely. Fuck me, the only one giving his concerns any bit of attention at all is Bryan and that's just so fucked that I can't stand it. How does this happen? How does the newcomer outrank Luke (honest, fair Luke) to his own family.
Yes, Luke's been drinking, but fuck that! You don't blame a rape victim if he or she's been drinking! Luke shouldn't be blamed either, and that's what it seems like everyone's doing. He didn't imagine it, he didn't bring it on himself--Bryan Took Advantage Of Him, plain and simple. And this, this MADDENS me that people, on the show and off the show are ignoring that. Yet another fucking thing that's fucking with Luke's head. I'd maybe expect Lucinda, even his parents to be skeptical, (which is probably why he didn't tell them) but not Noah. Jesus, that was bad writing right there.
Luke is self-destructing, one drink at a time. Drunks are not reasonable, they are not prepared to deal with their issues--that's why they're drunks, yo. It is up to the people who love him to save him, because at this point I don't think he can save himself. I think that is beyond his capabilities. And while I don't blame Noah, I do think he needs to pull his head out of his ass and see Luke. Not the drunk, not the self-destructive streak but Luke. The man he fell in love with, and figure out what the fuck is going on in his head so he can help him fix it.
It's ten till two now, and I gotta go prepare myself for the hurt this episode is gonna cause. Peace out.
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Ditto on the wanting to take care of him bit. I think Luke has been such a strong character for such a long time that the writers needed to show his weaknesses too. Hopefully they don't screw everything up while they're at it.
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*kicks plot*